someday i will...

get my pilots license, and go to see all the amazing places beyond belief. start a ministry unlike any ministry before. change the world. write a book. have my house filled with flowers constantly, just the way i always wanted. be an incredible mom, but not in the traditional way. be apart of an amazing charity, or even start my own. speak to others and teach them how to do the same. feel beautiful in my skin, exactly as i am. become an amazing chef. be in love with someone who completely adores me and loves the me that i love. prove that nice people do not in fact finish last, and no it's not just guys. tell the world my story, and create an impact. accomplish more things than i could ever make a list of. let go of the control completely and fully. be able to not take it so personally. prove them all wrong...while at the same time not caring about proving anyone wrong...because i know what i can do, and that's all i need. use what i know, instead of overreacting. own my cute little girlie dog that i always wanted. know that people do see my aura and it is all around me, always...despite what i might think. have a room in my house just for wrapping gifts, and everything that comes with it, because i absolutely adore everything that has to do with holidays and the presentation of a gift, it is almost half the present! show my relationships the love, care, and appreciation today...because i know tomorrow is never guaranteed. rest assured because people will not have to question me, they will just know. live my life knowing that what happens was never up to me in the first place. love the only way i know how, but without worrying about the consequences. capture your heart and know i have it for sure. inspire others to know their purpose...it is so freeing when you do. have my day, i can feel it. realize that even though i'm not beauty queen, it's ok because i'm still beautiful me. win a golf tournament. know that what others say is true...but i realize it more everyday. know that you hear my soul speak, and I will see that you realize it. i will be able to forgive you for denying me at least the chance to do what i believe is right, because you will have realized the consequences for you are much worse.